40 or more years ahead
1. What are the definite tasks I have for myself?
2. What is the greatest goal of my life? What does that change and what does it mean to others?
3.  Major changes are on their ways throughout this period of time.  How can I now prepare myself for them?
4.  If changes turn me into another path I dont even recognise, in what ways does my previous education help to put me back into senses?
5.  What challenges will I be willing to take up during this period of time?
6.  What about the unexpected ones? commitment I dont now see myself making?
7.  Where should I stand in 5 yrs, 10yrs, 15 yrs, 20yrs and 40yrs?
8.  If Life jz couldnt cooperate with me, do I go with the flow? What's the cut-off for me to do so?
9.  At the end of these yrs, what makes myself proud?
10.  If there is one thing I could foresee, what would it be?
11.  If there is a thing I must bring in, what could it be?
12.  If I never cross the path I always dream about in these years, will I still be happy living my days?
13.  What my priority list is like?
14.  Say I have complete control over these years, how do my years look like? How is it going to differ from the reality?

#勇气运气两样不能少

Never realise that Charles Darwin is on £10 notes

如果生命来到尾声，我后悔什么？

#to-do-list加了一件事

when u suddenly realise you are confusing the English and French pronunciation!
OMG!!!!
subconsciously pronouncing English word by French pronunciation......

Easter Identity Hunt

Thaikhun...always impressed by the deco 

Went to a Thai restaurant after the MFest
proud to be a citizen of my country
proud that we introduced our country and culture to the locals
it surprised me to see a big crowd queueing for henna or chinese knot
It was my very first time tying chinese knot, ketupat, hv henna done on my arm, play guli and make Indian Kolam!!!!
it is always when you are away that u tend to appreciate the culture of where you are from.
it jz made me really proud when ppl of european origin were thrilled to learn abt a country far off in Asia enriched with different racial cultures on a single land.
I felt so touched to see ppl holding our national flag and celebrating the festival with us.

There you go, HENNA!

2016的突破！心里过得去的话，或许是刺青的前奏！

#MFest16

Dr Jekyl and Mr Hyde Musical

1st musical watched
great time well-spent!
Abt a science geek and abt research went haywire
it reminded me of a prof of mine. He once told me that researching is addictive. Well demonstrated by the actor playing Dr Jekyl!




















"If I am thinking of the consequences for every step I take, I am going no where!" - Dr Jekyl

Like this dialogue very much!

Last scene - the very last moment of the scientist's life.

At a local theatre
love the feel very much
quite smoky, relaxing, entertained!
you know, saturday night, family and friends gathering at a theatre for a musical
with wine, beer and chips
=)

#谢幕是有感动的
#easterweekendmusical

Lucky biscuit

Fresh from Portugal

Glad that my housemate is back

Terrorist attack phobia! 

Not going anywhere for the peace of mind.

Easter 2016,
only 23hours ....

两年来一直徘徊在星期五下午两点 / 三点听radio
还是每个weekday晚上9.30 /10.30

终于， 调回7小时时差

长豆糕 - Grandma's Recipe

1. Stir fry the sliced chillies and the diced beans. Add extra salt to taste quite salty. Add in prawns when the vege is ready. Note: Beans must be tender to taste nice. Must add red chillies to taste refreshingly spicy and trust me, chillies go well with prawns. 

2.  Add flour and water to the vege mixture and steam for 15-20mins. 

3.  Taa-daaa~~~~

      

      Cut into pieces when it is cooled to room temperature.

4.  Serve with chilli sauce. 

     

奇怪，清明要到了就会想吃。。。也不嫌麻烦，花了一个小时，就为几块阿嬤小时候做给我吃的糕

Cambridge

Cambridge in my eyes

1. Flowers - because it was the start of spring or end of winter when I visited

2. Countless colleges - campuses are not as large as my own university but every campus is unique in its own way. 

3. Bicycles - surprisingly, it is like Amsterdam where you'll see more bicycles than cars. Pedestrian lanes are pretty much incomplete in the city. It is like everyone will jz cross the roads at anywhere they like. This is in stark contrast to the city I live in.  Made me think a while on how to navigate myself in the city.

4. Chapels - every college seems to have one. Quite special interior as compared to those I have visited before.  

5. Courtsss - A few in a college and there are countless colleges, so, countless courts in the city.

6. Punting - was quite fun honestly.  Relaxing and fun.

7.  Ducks, swans - destressing enough!

8. Mathematical bridge - A proof of geometric construction back then

9. Library - impressive!!! Smell of moist paper. Saw how the big scientific theories were first drafted on paper.  Am really grateful that I was born in an era where the knowledge is widely available and well-proven, ready to be studied and applied to aid our daily lives.  Saw Isaac Newton's walking stick too. 

10. Chelsea bun at Fitzbillie's. Very sweet but like it a lot.

Regrettably, King's College was closed that day for recording purpose. Thought I should have visited the 徐志摩monument.

《再别康桥》

轻轻的我走了，

正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。
　
那河畔的金柳，
是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。
　
软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草！
　
那榆荫下的一潭，
不是清泉，
是天上虹；
揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
　
寻梦？撑一支长篙，
向青草更青处漫溯；
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌。
　
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥！
　
悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩

p/s : 真的有河畔的金柳！！！

1st Day of Spring 2016

Daffodil 是野花？ Just around the corner outside my house

神奇吧？ 乌云的这端， 还有前面的阳光普照！

Last Lecture TT

Future med lecture on biosimilar

Prof V W. 

"It is ur job to ask questions! Ask why to every step in healthcare system."

"Who pay for the treatment?" 

we said the taxpayers. 

He said "NO, NO, NOOOOO! Not taxpayers, you !"

haha, he likes to make his lectures political 

wahahahaha.....

then, i had the teaching review. 

Taught abt thiamine, explained the impaired absorption mechanism in alcoholism.

the facilitator wasnt happy with the accuracy on a picture I got from google image.

Spent considerably amount of time arguing abt it.

Got my team members backing me. So so so grateful to be in this team. 

She wasnt wrong actually, jz that she shouldnt hv acted scientist in a session like this.

The session is abt teaching. The audience are my peer. We are concerned to how drugs are used in daily life because that's our job. 

You are trying to argue over the routes to get to the same place? come on, wat we care abt is whether the patients will get to the final destination!

It became so funny thereafter that we found her comments very demanding, 

and then, we took turn to defend each other!hahahaha

it was like she tried to comment on a team and the other 2 just couldnt wait to refute her!

Am really sorry, we do not mean to be offensive. But u're speaking from ur pt of view, 

we arent speaking of ours. We are standing together with the patients! We only care if things gonna work for the patients! ahahaha. 

Bugging us abt teaching style? Let me be frank, teaching is my last option if there is another occupation i could do, And, it's the case for all of us in the team.

We love sharing of information. We love peer learning and teaching. 

But, in our own ways. In a way that works best for our team! 

And that is a way which only us will comprehend. 

  I was almost out of patience when I answered "Who cares!" to a question abt healthcare statistics in the US. hahahahahaha

We were supposed to ask question after a group demonstrated their teaching, It came to a time where we didnt hv any question at all. Then a fren shouted:"what's the patient's surname?" because the patient has a sensitive controversial name if his surname happens to be  sth.  

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

A good laugh definitely! And, teamworking!!!

Never know tat i can be so happy in a team! Grateful! it's coming to an end soon.TT

temperature reached 10 degrees today. Spring finally is on its way!

So, it all ended in the last days of winter. =)

#2ndtimebeingabitch

惊觉，
明天
应该是最后一堂课了
TT

天气晴朗

我好开心
大晴天!!!
好温暖哦
超开心～

天气好怎么可以浪费呢

好久好久没去公园了

虽然今天也只有6℃，但是有太阳“罩”我

免费空调，好舒服!

图书馆外的人们

今天特别多人在室外的草丛晒太阳

邻居的花也开了

看! 阳光!微风轻抚湖面～虽然是轻抚，但是没有间断过。。。

#重生的一天

#好多个月没有7点醒了

#再两，三个星期spring就officiallybegins

戒不掉还真是个借口啊
饼干，至少，3个月了！
咖啡，两年了

有些事，努力积极做也做不了
放弃了，过了会儿，
某天突然发现，写在to-give-up list 上的，突然就删了几个
开心~~

改变，得从新开始

#第二次剪短牵挂

Passer l'éponge
To forget the past

A promise to myself
I shall open my eyes again
And be a better me!
See u, my new world, in 7 hrs time

Lime juice 

Perfect for fluid-loading

Mild fever 

声音地图

http://soundandtaiwan.com/soundmap/twmap.html

其实，我去每个城市都有录音呢！！
没想到，世界上有个like-minded，而他捷足先登了！！
好开心！
他是聲音藝術家吳燦政

原来可以这样日行一善

so i took part in another study today
the researcher emailed me and said it was really difficult for her to find suitable candidates for her study
so, i made time for her study since I am eligible.
Candidates have to be multilingual-literate.
Perfect! so proud to be someone like tat! hahaha
it was abt English word recognition
Ppl who know a few languages normally recognize English words differently.
is it not? I really struggled a bit coz i confused Malay and English words
so, strings of alphabets combination kept appearing on screen and I had to decide on 1st sight whether it was an English word.
haha....i was actually confused half-way through.
glad tat i helped someone today

日子有好有坏，过了就别回头！

枯萎的玫瑰就像今天的心情， 美，但有着掩饰不了的阴郁

今天，遇到了很过分，不专业的老师

人真的不可貌相，平时看起来斯斯文文的，别以为就是好人

来了这里一直遇到好人吧

今天遇到一个有义务帮我的，却表现的很不愿意

责任就是教育我的，却给了我另类的教育

含泪冲出她房间，我第一个想法是去举报她

冷静下来后，觉得我应该专注在self-development

而不是帮她develop herself

一开始，她的态度差劲，我真没遇过教授这副德性
甚至有点感到被侮辱了！

当从她嘴里得知的确受了委屈，她态度也软化时， 

我就受不了了！！！！

我有被自己的反击吓到

没想到我也可以是bitch，被惹到时

但是把话都难听的讲完，我就有点看不起自己了

为什么，就一瞬间，我成了跟我眼中的她一样差劲，EQ低的人了呢？

超级对不起努力教育我的人

*努力反省*
(应该装客气的拼命讲感谢她的话，让她惭愧，然后跟我道歉，
最后讲 “My mum taught me that 'good for good is natural. good for evil is manly' 起身离开！
哈哈哈哈。。。的确做错了。。。)

得当kiwi中的plum 或 vice versa 呀

我，还是很不习惯徒劳无功

努力努力努力！！！

就算徒劳无功！！！

我没有对不起自己！！

其实心里是有小确幸的，因为拿那样的分数问题不在我不够努力

只是他们还有系统上没有对我公平而已

谢谢，帮我上了一堂课叫“坚强面对不公不正” 

或是“真正的毅力是遇到山也要钻洞走过去”

没什么大不了的

日子照样过

=）

未来要更强大！

#如果我天天都是刚刚那副bitch的德性就好了
#Dont take东方人的斯文，内敛for granted！
#既然不检举，那么原谅她吧，或许it's a bad day for her too

忘了说，一直没封锁，
因为我要确保就算当事人走过我这里，看了我写的故事
我也没对不起任何人！写的是事实，保证！

就是个人的regulatory mechanism吧

took part in a psychology research

In investigating how ppl from diff cultural backgrounds solve problems

Was quite interesting

Was told at the end during the research debrief that she was actually observing how chinese and westerner work to solve problem

The usual generalisation is that chinese tends to work harder than the westerners 

So, she gave me a mathematical puzzle , told me it was optional to solve it or not and gave an excuse to leave me in the room

A camera was left to record what I did in the room while I was alone.

Honestly, i tried to solve the puzzle becoz i was bored and i thought the puzzle was interesting. Not bcoz i am hardworking... not at all!

#日行一善
#明天帮另一位

“有些话，说与不说都是伤害；有些人，留与不留都会离开。如果我放弃了，不是因为我输了，而是因为我懂了。”

“痛了要懂，懂了不痛。放弃，因为不自弃。”

母亲节的~~~天

如果给你预见未来，
你躲吗？
得想清楚才回去啊

Snowy shower at 5℃

Mosses covered with ice

Went to shop in the city

Waited for bus at the bus stop

Enjoyed the chill

Met a grandma...she was impressed of my mandarin-literacy.=)

其实，
感情之所以廉价，是因为当事人愿意把它廉价化
你毒舌地说出了低级的话，那刻，是你侮辱，否定了一切
当然，很多时候，那不是intentional的
只是，人们很多时候都没有想过了才act
或许，再过几年， 我也会变成那样的人
对自己的情感变得不那么敏感
没那么在乎吧

或许，到那时，我就可以也变成那样的人，那样地付出，那样的接受也心甘情愿吧
但是在到那时前，没办法。。。理解。。。
我，还是想把它变成无价的礼物
不敢说是永远的，却一定是long enough for a lifetime 的
不是任何过节可以抵消的
至少，到今天，是这样的~

作詞：姚若龍

看淡了才不再奢求 才迎向自由
肯接受 只有無形的能不朽
用眼裡的空洞 去無視沉重

狂風停 雲也該放開手
淡淡地走

4th March

When is my spring time???

The apple tree in the backyard has sprouted!

飘雪~~

好美好美

好冷好冷

Step 1

光秃秃的树，平静的湖， 标志性的钟，一群飞翔的白色鸟， 地上一群鸭子，还有永远坐着情侣的椅子

Omg, saw the best scene in prof's room

Pardon me for my drawing

He purposely turned the window blind for us while saying "ppl often say i hv the best view in my office. There u go."

It was scenic!

While we were chatting, suddenly a herd of white birds flew off and it was that moment that i wish that room was mine.

Glad that we met today ...

You motivated me a lot

"You hv a dream, you hv to go after it."

Really thanks for ur time. 

I will definitely make meeting u a turning point of my life. 

Never give up. Life is meant to be tough.

"Talking to someone abt ur dream is the beginning of it."

Agree! Talking, from thinking. 

And actions-taking follows.

You told me abt the atypical, hopefully i will be one too.

Nth is impossible!

If it snows tomorrow, ...............................

不知道想干嘛

只想这样简简单单一辈子

淡淡的海盐

淡淡的cheese香

5度

Detox day