人生有起有落
没什么大不了的
我可以的
加油！！！！

当幻想破灭
当看似美好的一切一切都是假象
当碰钉子碰到麻痹
当自己觉得自己很烂很烂很烂
当一切都被人否决

这一刻
我终于懂国籍对一个人来讲是什么意义
那张蓝卡，或许对你而言就是钱包里多了的卡
但是这一刻，它是我最后的安慰
我还可以跟自己说，我要回去啦
其实就是只输了比赛的打架鸡

这个地方，外人看来太美好太梦幻了
不是这样的，现实的不得了
什么都得抢得头破血流
内向的人会死很惨！！！

他说：要撑着，不可以绝望，自己放弃就什么都没有了
她说：赚赚他们钱就好，反正会离开的

为什么22度那么难受？？？
TT
我变了
TT
好热！！！
我要睡街边！！！！！！！！！！！

Ah ma, lu tia tiok bo xio tiok

U zit Kang 

Lu eh gai za bou e 

Di Eng kok zo lu ga e eh Bak Pao

我过得好好的～

毕业哦。。。

she is the most supportive senior i hv ever had

she is the onli senior i m close with in fact

she has been helping me, in academic wise, since my 1st year

although our syllabi are different, she guided me a lot when i was lost in nowhere 

when I was in college, i didnt get the chance to know her

on my 1st day of uni life, she appeared 

i asked lots of questions tat day

then v met occasionally in the school

when v were drawing randomly for a buddy 

i got a famous senior who didnt wan to hv a buddy but submitted his name for no reason

again, she came to support me, voluntarily

she gave me her phone no instantly when she heard of my sad story and said:" from now on, i'm ur buddy"

from then on, she is the guidance i will always seek for when I need advice

on my transition to 3rd year (the toughest time of my uni life i guess), 

she was always there for me

compared to those with an official buddy, I am very lucky. you know y?

The ordinary buddies often answer questions in a few words or just yes or no

she did essays for every question I asked 

not to forget that she was actualli quite occupied at that time

when i told her that my second year was so damn hard compared to 1st year

she said she had prepared herself to bring me to the best places in notts, so I had to pass all the exam

when v first arrived, she spent her 1st 2-3 days with us, showing us around the city

she is the one who brought us to our 1st meal on this foreign land

she is the one who brought us to buy duvet when v were shivering here 

she is a faithful christian

i really respect her a lot, for the values she practises in life

when she flew last year, 

i started the countdown for my own

when she is waiting for graduation ceremony now......

i tell myself that it's time to be an independent senior 

start to countdown......1 year left!

P/s: I dont know if we will ever meet again.TT you are not onli a senior to me. Sister, teacher and  true friend of course!!! 

Graduation 没什么好庆祝的。。。你一路上的苦与乐，除了自己， 就只有同艘船的懂。。。

把它变成一个ceremony， 好像真的一点意义都没有

毕业了，人生才刚开始呀

scone with fruity cream 

luxury hot chocolate

went out again

=)

when i wake up having no plan of the day

i walk everywhere i can with my pair of legs as a form of exercise 

really love the culture n ppl here

an old couple i met today

they were so cute 

i left my shopping bags on the chair when i went to order food

the lady went to stand beside the bags 

when i came back, she asked if those bags are mine, 

I said yes and sorry for occupying the chair, assuming that she wanted to take the chair.

her husband came in and said, "no..no.....u can leave them on the chair of course ....we are thinking of informing the waiter to make an announcement on lost shopping bags."

feel it.....think abt it

what is different between them and me?

I am half-blind and i care for no one around me 

i take good care of myself ... always do 

but what makes a better world?

This is soooo cute!

葱蛋

南瓜

carbo 在饮料里

终于。。。终于可以把感受写出来
一直，我有个问题
一直，我告诉自己那是motion sickness（蛮严重的）
从小，
巴士， 轿车， 火车， 飞机。。。
我都吐很惨
1. 会动
2. 被一个小空间关住

只要知道要travel long distance
上交通工具的时候，stress 就来了
过程是这样的
晕。。。吐。。。。。
再吐。。。。。
还是吐。。。。。。。。。。。。
然后最难受的来了。。。
难受比上交通工具时增强好几倍
有一种致命的感觉
就是我四肢黏在椅子被困在那小小空间里
（这段描述， 我发誓， 没有任何夸张手法）
空气好像是千千万万颗particles stuck in my nose
no matter how hard i breathe, the particles arent moving!!!!!
a few minutes later, i start panting
heart beats faster and faster
the feeling got worse and worse.........
i scream loud inside:" LET ME OUT!!!!!!"
就像以前周会时只要前后左右的同学靠我太近，我就会晕那样
就像以前听名人talk， 大家拿椅子围着我坐得很近很近，我快窒息在人群中一样
就像在那里工作，小小的空间7-8个人一直在我身边前后左右游移
这些时刻，那种致命感，难受！！！！

好比在溺毙时垂死挣扎
好比在火场努力往前跑却发现那火场太太太大
好比在一间刚刚好装我身体然后没有半点空间的房间里，不能呼吸，不能动
好比在四面墙的房间，而四面墙一直一直变小，最后，一面墙贴我屁股，左右手各一面，我的脸一面。。。不能呼吸。。没人能救我
TT

而这种难受，
那一秒，当我踩出那窒息的空间
一切就解决

朋友都知道，
不管是巴士，飞机
一到目的地
我就是一句话都不说， 只管冲出去
然后我就好啦

所以， 我很少回家
我很怕又要travel
7个小时(来回14小时)，完全就考研我的耐力 （当其他乘客呼呼大睡, 痛苦就只有我自己知道)
现在回想觉得很骄傲，因为我有一定要离家才更靠近的梦想
不管路途多难，这几年里走了多少这种瞬间
我没有让任何人知道，其实那是多么窒息的瞬间
在心里数数， 还是在脑海里编个故事，或是meditate
（不是讲自己厉害， 只是很多时候， 不要把问题放大来看， 过去了，回想时会惊佩自己有自己意想不到的毅力）

讲真的，就算从小到大经历这种窒息的瞬间无数次
我只要过了那难过的时刻
都不会像现在这样刻意回想那难堪的时刻
因为那感觉，真的很想死！！！！
一直，把它推给motion sickness
直到一个朋友目睹几次后说她觉得不简单，跟空间应该有点关系
才察觉， 这种“病态” 不只在travel 时

人总得越活越勇敢
越活越进步吧
promise。。。有机会，一定会克服！！！！！
加油！！！！

今天炸鱼～～～

拜托。。。。

不要再煮煮烤烤了！！！

我快肥死了

好！跑步去!

90后职场Patterns

1. Long for feedbacks - might not be just the positive ones

2. Voice for self inadequacy or incompetence - be frank abt what they know how to do and what they dont (The older generation tends to keep quiet abt it and figure out a solution after the meeting.)

3.  暗示， 不明示地suggest

4. Like to do what interests them ONLY.......show emotions verbally.  Meaningful projects such as recycling and other awareness-based issues are generally more attractive to them.

5.分析简短 = 不愿透露不满
eg, what do you think abt the project?  It was ...fine .

the touching moment when I had hard-boiled egg again!!!!!
hv been eating half-boiled eggs
to save boiling time when i was busy but needing protein source
u know.....it tastes soooooo damn good after u hv stopped taking for a while.

Evening tea alone.

Homemade!

Proud of myself

好美好的关系

可是。。。

殊不知

任何一段感情，都必须努力联系

住在不同的城市，

有不同的专业

不同的朋友圈

忙与稍微不忙的时间不同

等等。。。

我想说，有些人就是会莫名地系在一起

有心，就不怕难

在乎，距离就好微不足道

Emett Clock

Butterflies

Water clock

Father's Day 2015

Went out to shop

Ended up buying nth

I didn't know the sizes...TT

So, went to hv a piece of cake n a cup of americano

没想到有天我会有这种逛街逛累了去咖啡厅的生活

重点是，免费! 还任我选!

开心

----------trip continued

I hiked there with my pair of leg!!!

*Clap clap*

Eiffel Tower in Prague

The sky is blueeee~~~ (no filter)

Pity the horses there. Saw the carts operating almost every time i was there.

It is a city resembling France in some aspects
Basically it is a cheap place compared to UK

Beggars kneel to beg....
Ppl ransack the dustbins for food and wait for tourists' leftovers...
Rationality told me that i shouldnt b bothered for safety reasons
but my heart told me to do a lil bit more to make their worlds as comfy as mine
so, v bought a plate of food for an old beggar waited bside the dustbin for food.

It is a very clean city.
But v spent a lot to go to toilet. They almost hv none public free toilet.

Hurt my ankle....TT
My pair of white shoes is very dirty now!!!

Sunrise at Prague

woke up at 3am that day

4hrs of sleep 

it was kinda chill 

walked all the way to Charles Bridge which was abt 30-min walk away

walked passed some streets and boulevard with some prostitutes 

damn dangerous actually , especially when u're travelling with really naive ppl

anyway, things went out well and v made it to the bridge b4 the sun rose

worth my effort to get there at this hour in the morning!!!

Prague food

Roast duck, cabbage and bread dumplings. 

Suit our tongues very much bcoz it tastes similar to chinese cuisine 

TOOOOO salty though!

Fried eidam cheese! Very nice. The local cheese doesnt hv strong smell.

Baked Potatoes old Vajtyngrový

(sliced potatoes, spinach, onion, garlic, green beans, nutmeg and cream)

Boneless pork knee with cabbage or spinach, mix of dumplings

Again! Very salty

Fried cheese with homemade tartar sauce

this is nice.  From Lokal.

raspberry beer

Sweet cheese flavoured bun is nice!

the blueberry kolacek is very nice too 

salty pork

the famous sausage 

very big in size....like 5 fingers 

salty again!

sweet cherries. very cheap!

Trdelnik! Quite nice..

Eat those near to Charles Bridge. The one in Old Town Square doesnt taste good.

Best fruit juice I hv ever had.  Very natural.  U can feel all the fibres and it is literally fruit juice. Very little added water.

German sausage. Very salty but taste good.

Very nice without salt!

Alcoholic night! Realised that their local beer is very mild. No wonder they drink it as plain water.

Czech brand coca cola

Angelato ice cream!

Grand cappuccino  Lovre at Cafe Louvre

Karel Hynek Mácha: Máj (May)

Karel Hynek Mácha: Máj (May)
Beginning verses, translation by Edith Pargeter

Byl pozdní večer - první máj - večerní máj - byl lásky čas. Hrdliččin zval ku lásce hlas, kde borový zaváněl háj. O lásce šeptal tichý mech; květoucí strom lhal lásky žel, svou lásku slavík růži pěl, růžinu jevil vonný vzdech. Jezero hladké v křovích stinných zvučelo temně tajný bol, břeh objímal je kol a kol; a slunce jasná světů jiných bloudila blankytnými pásky, planoucí tam co slzy lásky.

Late evening, on the first of May - The twilit May - the time of love. Meltingly called the turtle-dove, Where rich and sweet pinewoods lay. Whispered of love the mosses trail, The flowering tree as sweetly lied, The rose's fragrant sigh replied To love-songs of the nightingale. In shadowy woods the burnished lake Darkly complained a secret pain, By circling shores embraced again; And heaven's clear sun leaned down to take A road astray in azure deeps, Like burning tears the lover weeps.

趴趴走！

暖暖的阳光
10++°C
陌生的脸孔
善意的微笑
水泄不通的广场
重口味的当地美食
肉食者的满足
到处都是自家breweries
比水还便宜的酒
满满的文化气息
各种语言。。。好多外语
好多Asians来这里拍婚纱照
彩色五层楼
反方向交通
艺术盛行的每个角落

Art galleriessssssssssssss

Theatresssssss

Churchssssss

日出!

导游的历史和故事诉说
一群旅游伴侣
走在街上，真的有一种掉入别的时空的感觉

狂喝酒!便宜到。。。。。

走到“Pai ka" 然后， 。。。。继续走!就是要走给它断

本地人很rude

是个好地方

自己plan 就可以走完的地方

一map在手就可以走透透

原来听听我们的“哇佬！” “jiak sai la" 就懂我们从哪里来
哈哈哈
在异国遇见同胞！哈哈

Prague Trip Prep

1. Flight ticket and bus ticket to and fro!
- Never wait or hesitate when there's a promo!Book ur ticket and everything would be MADE to fit the trip into ur calender!

2. Accommodation - BOOKED!
http://www.tripadvisor.co.uk/VacationRentalReview-g274707-d6391629-Orange_apartment_in_center-Prague_Bohemia.html

3.Currency exchange! Ordered online and collected in-store!
http://www.kanoocurrency.co.uk/order-currency/

4. Research! Massive work, but will find it useful.  Am the type who research a lot b4 travelling.....leave no stone in the city unturned electronically b4 am there! HAHAHA...

5. Language.  Learn some basic phrases! Ahoj....Kolik to stoji?......Nerozumim.......mluvite anglicky?..........To je moc drahe..........Promoc!!!........

6.  Lastly! PACK light! Bring onli necessities!

出发！

出国去～

平安开心趴趴走之旅正式开始!

祝我motion sickness 不要那么严重
第一次在机场过夜
定的巴士没来，改叫计程车去机场
没想到这里也有服务烂透的
结果结交了位好爸爸司机
算是有惊无险吧

好啦，有惊无险地在机场候机室啦
凌晨4点。。。
想办法睡吧!
Dobry den!

虽然和平时一样，晕得严重
可是只要咬紧牙根， 踏在那片地上是感动的！


这是我到现在为止睡得最少的一天
30.分钟！

结果。。。
以为对我最难的那科score得比自己沾沾自喜的好几条街！！！！！！
失望。。。真的
为什么认为可以的不能胜任
还好的莫名的胜任
随随便便，敷衍敷衍，不放任何心思就可以拿这样的分！！！！！
TT

跟你说我还好是假的
你说：“Quit while u're winning."
谢谢！有安慰到我啦。。。哈哈

姜丝粥 ○下雨天

保佑我

我要好好去玩啦!

The time when blueberries, raspberries and blackberries meet!

吃着爱吃的水果

15°C 的冷风

听听音乐

窗外用瓦搭的房子

警车的笛鸣生

假期很写意!

Cleanest city in Britain

Indeed!

realise tat i like to spend my time on the street

难道阿嫲说的“量马路” 就是在说我吗？

love the atmosphere here

i often spend time sitting on a bench on the high street in the city centre

listen to the street artist singing, or watch how creative the advertisement industry can b on the high street

feel the hectic pace

talk to some elders 

see how old couples spend their retired life 

this is when i do not feel myself and also, ironically, the time i spend with my real self 

happiness is so real 

watching the world moving but remaining stationary myself

met a middle-aged uncle today

he said he can recognise my face, he knows i'm a student from my uni

i couldnt recall who he is at all (until a fren of mine suggested that he might b the hopper bus driver....hahahaha)

see, the culture here, greet everyone u know, make any acquaintance ur fren 

TT......tat pair of shoes!!!!!!!!

like it so much but it is not meant to be mine!

but am still happy with tat dress

=)

彩妆篇

上了第一堂彩妆课
结论：
1 美的人， 可能只能远看
2 美， 需要时间。化个妆的时间， 和 卸妆的时间。 哎呀， 好累人呀!
3 学问! 不是一概抹上脸就行。

前阵子坚持一定得学
因为生命中有了值得带状现人的场合
哎呀， 比我想象更复杂， 更费时
好吧， 继续练习
有一天， 我也可以3分钟完妆!

  得记得我请教了位最好的老师呀!
谢谢

为什么这里的21°C 那么难受？
狂吃冰淇淋
睡客厅!

Went out for a walk
It was so sunny that I felt the need to go under the shade
Wanted so so much to open the umbrella
好不容易有了想买的东西
它们，却注定不属于我
T.T
它们， 好美哦。。。

世外桃源

Spring is abt flowers.

Left: lively lil white flowers

Right: wilt big red flowers

Anything not green or black is flower!

Omg!amazed me completely

Orange flower! Pink, white and yellow too